The Lifestyle Back Home

I honestly can't believe that I'm back already.  Life is so confusing to me.  It's hard to think about how crazy and busy my life was before I went.  I feel like I can't even take breath here.  The reservation seemed so stressful and overwhelming at times, but now I feel like I might go insane.  There are tax forms to fill out, college forms, dentist appointments, things to get fixed (like my car), people to meet with, chores at home, and having to know where everyone is all the time.  It's too much.  

I think the Rez taught me to feel relaxed and pay more attention to what is happening during 'the now'.  It is more important to focus on the present moment instead of what MIGHT happen in the future.  Life is too planned out.  I hate that.  I wish people could be okay with what I AM doing instead of what I SHOULD be doing.  Let time runs itself.  Otherwise I might miss something that is happening right in front of me.